My Rut

I've hit my first writers block. I didn't think it would happen to me, I'm Melissa! I can talk about hang nails and blackheads, toilet paper and coffee lids, road rash and Costco deals; and then it's usually lunchtime. I think it snowballed when I started writing my book. I let a few friends read it for some feed back on my direction/vision and while I sat back to see what they had to say, I began second guessing myself. What makes me so special? To have a blog and/or write a book? What's the point?

I've been selfish this whole time, sharing my opinions and thoughts, even my experiences and memories, but it's not really a place where I consider other people's feelings. My intention was never to offend or upset anyone. With any luck, my readers know me and my heart. I hope to continue the blog, get back into my rhythm of every other day, I just need to stop thinking so much.

When something is unsure or unresolved, all of a sudden EVERYTHING is a bit shaky, I feel lost and out of control. I believe moving our business to a new location is the catalyst this time. We are close to making a decision on a new property which puts a timeline on relocating from the only address that our business has ever known. As organized as I am, I am feeling the pressure and it's not even a done deal yet. One thing I know for certain is how therapeutic writing is. Just putting my fears and worries on paper makes me feel a bit lighter. I am so fortunate to have people who show interest in my personal thoughts and feelings, maybe it's for entertainment or just out of curiosity, whatever the reason, I am grateful because I truly enjoy sharing.

So quick overview of what's happening in the world of Melissa: Costco had some wonderful over-sized braided super soft throw pillows that I could not resist (the laptop is currently sitting on one of them as I type), my Fitbit has been ruling my world for the last 4 days as I get back on the wagon of losing weight and being healthy, we will be visiting with an investment advisor about retirement savings this week, taking a second walk through of our potential new business location, my new face mask came in the mail today so I'll be indulging in that probably on the weekend and I HAVE to book Zeus into the vet ASAP because his anal glands need to be squeezed 🤢 he walks around fanning his fresh fish stench and we can't take it anymore 🐶🐟🤮 (for $20 the vet uses a syringe to 'express' his anal glands and when its all over they spray a flowery scent near his bum)